the life force path…

so i had a salad at a resturaunt yesterday- it’s been the only dead food i’v had- the dressing, it was purple! and the walnuts, i’m sure were not raw, and feta cheese. i feel so sad about it now though.

all i’v been having are medjools and avocados. not good.

i’m losing alot of weight. i’m going to be 110 in like two weeks!

i like this light feeling. floating. i have no money. theres so much i wanted to buy. raw food books. processor. dehydrator. ugh. wanting= suffering. im trying not to suffer these days. accepting everything as it is. everything is just everything.

i thought eating this way erased dreams? i guess its still to early to tell. i feel so alone. i think this way of eating isolates you. my friend is visiting me today and wants to go out to eat, to take ME out, i feel like a snob saying, um, no, i cant eat this.it is my health though.

…weak. i’m going to do yoga today. it’s raining.

i hate how im so lazy at typing. I should really start using capitals. ha. oh well, its early in the day.

…..i noticed i dont need so much sleep. more time to think about life and why the fuck i cant figure it out for myself. yeah!

i just read another raw fooders blog- it’s so weird to be doing the same thing in different parts of the world. with the same intentions. the same weather.

i’m alittle hesitant about continuing this. its seems weird.

INEEDSERIOUSHELP. i dont know what im doing with raw foods. i think im going about it wrong. i feel so weak. i need some guidance.

only had an orange. have no food. didnt do any yoga either.

still gonna go with this though, its only day two! i better not wait till im really hungry and go food shopping and end up buying dead food.

ani phyo is my favorite raw chef now…

just got her book, and have to say its comforting seeing someone my age doing this- i havnt really found anyone on this journey too, and the people i already know about are generally 20 years older

first day of this raw food diet!
2 avacados, hass
1 navel orange- HUGE
1 small bag of goji berrys throughout the day
water water water

…yesterday i had 3 tetra packs of coco water, and a small container of medjool dates….not very healthy, and alf-alfa, but i mixed it with mayo wich was NASTY so i dont consider that my first day.
anyway- i dont have any tools yet to start “un-cookin” so for now its just simple.
i need to find a good blender thats not 400$!!!!

started yoga today- it feels so good, so refreshing. its hard in the moments but after it’s AMAZING!!!!